Friday, January 16, 2009

Better

I've decided that some people are afraid of my life. It's not full of ribbon's and bows and happy stories about my children keeping me up all night and all the fun things I've done with my them lately. That's OK. My life is full of those things ( except the ribbons and bows). I am a very different person than most the people I know. My life is complicated. I don't love it. i would rather spend the majority of my time running around with my kids and a visiting with my neighbors and going to wal mart in my pj's. Life dealt me a different hand. I chose a different road to walk down and now I'm doing my best to deal with it. I do the best with what I have. If feel bad ( sometimes) that i offend people on the way. I feel really bad the friends that I thought I once had are no longer showing interest in me because I'm to messy, or what ever. I Thank the ones who don't really care about the current mess because they seem to realize that it will eventually wash off. I'll climb out of this hole I'm in and I'll know who to thank for helping me out on the other side. I might even be wearing a ribbon or two.

4 comments:

demoux family said...

A pox on ribbons, they just get in the way (at least to me). Did you ever hear back about that other job you applied for?

average american said...

I've been applying to job after job. nothing yet. I need to get something soon though. i agree. A pox on ribbons!!!!

Manda Jane said...

I love you my Brenda! Sharon and I miss you tons- we should have another movie night sometime :)

average american said...

Yes we should have another movie nite. I need a couch first. soon. I miss you guys too. so much, I can't even tell you.