lights

one of the lights on the shore just went out. it's getting harder to find my way. ugh. I'm tired. treading water for so long is hard.

Trying this again

it's been 6Mon since I've blogged. I've changed my blog from Tiny bubbles to Into the ocean, because that's how I feel. I feel like I've jumped into the ocean just for the hell of it and now I'm trying to make it back to some kind of sandy shore. Choppy waters and sharks and all that make it hard. Occasionally a really big wave comes smashing down just as I thought I was gaining ground. There's not much to grab on too, not much light and the water can be pretty black. Every now and again there's a light. I fight for those lights. I know when I swim toward those lights I'm going the right way. Anyway, that's what happened. Things on deck weren't right and I jumped. Now I'm just trying to make my way to the shore.